Raison d'etre!

Strange isn't it when you think of it! Why do you need a raison d'etre to live? We celebrate brithdays and make such a hoo ha of it, because I presume it's about a celebration of life. The day we saw the sunlight coming out of the warm cocoon of our mother's wombs was the day we breathed life. And birthdays I presume are a celebration of that. So then why do we all need a raison d'etre?

Of course as I'm wont to do, I may be presumptous in thinking that everyone is seeking, searching and wanting a rde. Well that may or may not be true and I won't belabour that point. The moot point being, why do I need to live for so and so or have a reason to earn so much, or have a goal and an objective and be focused and all that. Why do I need to be a doctor, engineer, do this, climb that, achieve this, earn that, display this, etc.

Actually I can play devil's advocate here and say that the previous statement almost endorses one to be a drifter, a loser, kind of person (these are of course based on my conditioned definitions of who is what, and what one should be doing in life, etc. and am hoping that by that admission, it exonerates me of some of the guilt I feel when I label people as such).

Yet, I can see that if I didn't want to be a doctor, then who'd cure me of my ailments, and so on. But is that what this post is about? No, not really. I'm not sure if I can capture the sentiment I'm feeling right now, but it's like this - I'm a doctor sure. I became one (let's assume everything as hypothetically ideal situations) to alleviate suffering. That's my objective and goal in life. I achieve that then the rest are all non-essentials. But no, we want to be Head of Surgery, we want to have 'x,y,z' degrees to show off or because it helps in career advancement, I want a better car and want to live in Malabar Hill or travel to exotic locations, etc.

So is that bad? (Am being the advocate again). Hmm...where is this going? Well...don't know.

But I do know one thing - my raison d'etre is to be happy. And bring happiness to those I know and love and respect and cherish and be a good person as best as I know how. I can't be perfect and there are a number of things I have done as a person which may have caused hurt and disappointment and anger to those I care about and to self. It may be unforgivable and I will pay for it and am paying for it as I live each day.

Raison d'etre. Reason to be!

I live, I love, I cry, I wake up, I walk, I live, I love, I cry, I laugh, I sin, I think.

What's your raison d'etre?