Is this the fork in the road?

I've taken the right. No left. No right. Er...well, I've been hand picked and placed at the centre of the fork in the road. Now whether it's Right or Not Right, I'll know after I've trudged down the path a few miles.

I'm of course nervous. And apprehensive. New job. New organization. New colleagues. New responsibilities. New monies. New business. New phase in life.

Some of it is a path less travelled. Some of it, like a new job, is something I've done before. But like stage fright, every time you go on stage, even for your 1000th show, you have butterflies in your stomach? I feel the same way right now.

It eventually turns out well. But that's only for me to know later.

That's all on the career/job front.

On matters of the heart too, am nervous. I like him so much it hurts. I want him so much that it hurts more :). And then familiar bouts of insecurity assail me and the ugly questions gnaw at my innards. It's simple really, I want this to work. 4 months gone and sometimes I'm afraid to enunciate all that I feel. Fear, god, fear, it can kill you, if not ruin you first. Well, all I can do is live on hope, hope and some more hope. And learn the art of patience. Right now I'm holding my breath.

So what's it going to be for you? Right, Not Right, Left or...? These forks in the road I tell ya...maybe we should all get a spoon instead.