You know you're old when...

... the cute little tyke of 6/7 years calls you 'aunty'. You want to make eyes at her, tell her that she and her gaggle of sam-age terrors can call you by your name, but then you realize that that would be perceived a tad unnatural perhaps. And to their untrained but extremely perceptive and sharp mind, they would actually realize the subliminal wish of this 'aunty' to foolishly cling on to an age which is long past.

I'm terrified. Especially when I know that I won't have children of my own to 'look after me in my old age' or a devoted husband or live-in partner or brother or anyone. And then to think that in my loneliness I'm not alone, but every breath of mine is probably monitored by some 'server' (how aptly titled) somewhere. And then who knows, I could be picked like Jodie Foster was in the movie 'Flight Plan', another one that I saw last week which was so terrifyingly close to what can actually happen to any of us. To think I could be the harbinger of bad tidings or a pawn in a mindless game of terror and power or an innocent perpetrator of a crime so heinous that it would go down as the 'moment' that changed history. Oh well, put it like that, it seems I could actually become a historical figure eh? Hmmm...not so bad.

Historical is so much better than fossil.

P.S. - Jodie Foster is a beautiful looking woman. Intelligent, sensitive and breath takingly beautiful in all those many ways. You could believe her to be a scientist for sure. And a nurturer and care giver and all of that. She is so beautiful.